I make no apology for the Star Wars analogy and I'm certainly not making light of my situation.
Star Wars (force awakens) became poignant for me whilst thinking about current aspects of my life. Part of the story deals with a child who rebels against their parents and crosses over to the dark side. I feel this as my eldest daughter went over to the "dark side" 4 years ago. I also feel like Han Solo, as if I've taken a lightsabre to the heart. The hurt is always there and never goes away.
It's always hardest around birthdays and Christmas, she is missed by us all.